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Friday, December 29, 2006

Looking Back #1.

Holy Moly.

Today marks the day 29th December '06. Okay it's not much of a Special day but it simply means that it's 3 days to go to the year 2007.
Oh God, save me.

So the past few weeks zoomed past just.like.that. I can't even keep track of what exactly i did, the days were busy busy busy ! I just remember having to wake up friggin' early for almost everyday last week, cheered my hearts out, played my ass out (But pretty Fun though.) and experience spending a full day at school all over again for the ogl camp for the whole of last week.

And i also remember meeting up with dear old friends like Melwong, Tasha and Abbs. Met up with Mel along with the rest of the girls and it was almost like Sec 2 Faith days again. Haven't seen that ex-table mate of mine for years. Claudia Leung, you too !

Went back St Nicks during one of those days and had lunch at Botak Jones with Ms Lim, the girls, and of course 10 Years-See-Once-Friend Miss Tasha Eu ! Caught up with her quite a bit that day. She is oh my goodness Slim now. So proud of her. She did it ! She is my Motivation now. I shall not remain the one, who never loses any weight but everyone around her always manages to Shuwei. I am determined

Yup. And i finally met up with Abbs ! Had dinner with her on Wednesday and it just feel so good to know that no matter how long we haven't meet up with each other, at the end of the day when we actually do, we still speak the same way (All the 'Oohs' and the 'Very') and have great conversations with one another.

Hope Christmas was good for everyone. This year had the usual family gathering at my Aunt's and i had a pretty special Xmas night too ; ) Night walks is my next favourite night activity besides Sleeping.

So here i am, on the Last Friday of Year 2006. This week is so good, just that it passed way fast. How i wish things can slow down this very moment. I am so glad i am able to spend this last week in good company of my friends. The stayover at Dswei's and yesterday's All Throwers steamboat gathering were really good fun and company. How i wish i can start the Monday of this week all over again.

Okay, maybe i should stop 'How I Wish'. Maybe it is good not to keep looking back. It is going to be the new year soon. Maybe i should just start planning my Looks-Good-However-Useless new year resolution for 2007 soon.

3 more days people. Be afraid, be very afraid.

Okie dokes, time to head to Pam's house to meet the girls. I am so late. What is a Tgif without spending it with my good ol' pals ?

Thank God for my Friends.

And may my stomach stop hurting NOW. I don't want to go to the Toilet again.

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Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Maybe Christmas.

Maybe this Christmas will mean something more. Maybe this year love will appear. Deeper than ever before. And maybe forgiveness will ask us to call. Someone we love, Someone we’ve lost. For reasons we can’t quite recall. Mmm, maybe this Christmas. Maybe there’ll be an open door. Maybe the star that shined before. Will shine once more. And maybe this Christmas will find us at last. In heaven, at peace. Prayed for at least. For the love we’ve been shown in the past. Maybe this Christmas. Maybe this Christmas - Ron Sexsmith

My all time favourite Xmas song from the OC.
Merry Christmas my friends ;)

I will try to update this lil' blog soon. Christmas, no blogging.

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Tuesday, December 12, 2006

You There, Faith ?

I went back to St Nicks today.

Great place, great company, great Ice Milo. What else can beat this ? Had a Date with Ms Keh back in St Nicks in the morning. Been a while since we last met and it was such a pleasant surprise to hear from her again. So the best place to meet ? St Nicks, of course.
She is still as dynamic, as frank and as hilarious as she has always been. Talking to her never fails to make me ponder, and she made me understand a great deal of things, about Life, of the Past, and the Now. After spending the whole afternoon with her talking, i went back home, thinking of what we've talked about, and thoughts just started surging through my mind, like you know, huge big waves making the rounds in my head.
And then i fell alseep.

She's great, really. I want to be like her one day.

Managed to bump into some other teachers today too. Had a little chat with Miss Jeya and Miss Pravba. They were so animated. It's the Lit teachers Thing i think. Haha
And of course, what is a trip back to St Nicks without talking to Ms Lim ? And as always, she poured out her exhaustion and frustrations, of the girls and the school. I can't help but feel so worried for St Nicks. I just want to hurry grow up, work, and join the Alumni.

Man, in 2 years' time, St Nicks will be undergoing Prime and moving to a new/old compound, temporary, for 2 years. And then, the whole St Nicks building, both primary and secondary will go down, along side with my 10 years worth of meomories. Everything will then no longer be the same.

So to all old girls and old girls to be, go back as often as you can, ah.

Camp tomorrow and i feel like i'm packing 10 days worth of things.

2 days 1 night. Home Sick ?

Faith.

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Sunday, December 10, 2006

Where Does The Good Go ?

Where does the good go? Where does the good go? - Tegan & Sarah

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I went into the Throwers' Blog today, am i impressed.
And there, i went to my old boxes and digged out all my Photo Albums..

Once again,
it's Nostalgic Sunday !

And then i scanned through my past past blog entries.
They seemed happier somehow. So Sweet Sixteen

I just want to Sleep, now.

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Friday, December 08, 2006

The Blues Are Still Blue

Well look at the kid from school. He's teaching mamas and papas how to be a little cool. He's changing fashion, the way he dress. The tracksuits are old, and the hoody's way too moody. For the kid with the will to funk. He dances in secret; he's a part-time punk.

She's getting off the plane. She wants to write a thesis on the population underprivileged. The kids fighting up the lane. Shop lifting, just drifting. Like The Switchblade And The Cross. But if there's trouble she's got the moves. She's taking an elementary class in Kung Fu.

I left my washing in the launderette. You can put some money on it, you can place a little bet. That when I see my washing. The black will be grey and the white will be grey. But the blues are still blue - Belle And Sebastian

***

I am scarred.

What an irony. I cut my beautiful long nails cos it was getting way too long and i was afraid they would become hazardous to the beings around me. In the end, i left a cut across my nose bridge (If i even have one.) with my cut, short and fugly nails. I don't know how and i don't know when i got that cut, but i suspect it was when i was asleep.

We have finally quit.

Yuanbing and I have finally signed the Resigned form. But how queer, both of left the office with a sense of forlorn as we bid Goodbye to our supervisors and co-workers. We felt like freshly minted graduates, in fact. It was like Graduation Day. Everyone was sending us their well wishes and asking us to come back again during our next vacation. We've learnt quite a lot, from this one month old job.

Working in The Office, i've learnt one thing for sure. There are All Sorts of interesting characters. From the person that is sitting at the next table beside you, to the No.97 Customer that you are about to call, or rather victimise, has just made me conclude one thing.

Thank God I'm Normal.

Seriously.

Okay,

There's Julian, the guy that speaks like a boom box everytime he makes a call to the customers. He makes the very effort to spell out his name loud and clear ('Hi my name is Julian. J-U-L-I-A-N') like Whatever For? and even his mobile number. Now, i totally know what's his Handphone number.

But I think the whole office do too.

There's this lady named Sally, who wears the Hot Skirt, mini tops and a scary flirtatious way of engaging with her customers. And Eugene looks just like her Toy Boy. Oh, i forgot to mention, it's more appropriate to call her Aunty Sally. You get the picture. Lao Sio Bu?

There's NS 22 guy, who creeps on my dear friend Yb. His side way sheepish smile is nothing but Perverse and gawd, his hair.. Poor Yb, she never failed to receive those Perverse stares from him across the table. I felt a need to protect my friend whenevr he's in the Office.

There's Ronald, our supervisor. The classic Uncle Teeko, if you ask me. Those sudden wipe across my shoulders were traumatizing, not to mention always coming so close.. The very day when i was summoned into his office, Alone, was the day i thought i was going to get violated. Lol. He is that Teeko. But he's nice, la.

There's Ju, the Queen of sales, who speaks English, Chinese, Malay, Hokkien, Fillipina and what not. She's my Shi Fu, who thought me the art of handling undesirable customers. And i must repeat again, she is really the Queen of Sales.

There is Rita, a pretty Malay lady, who happens to be our PMSing Leader. Her different-hair-style-per-day just amazes me.

And there's Eugene, our new friend found. Who is as gay as he seems. I mean Gay as in Jubilant.. The few of us never fail to bitch talk about The Office.

These are some of the very Interesting characters to begin with.

I'm going to miss The Office, for now.

Okay, anyway, i just must say something. I made this very Lame declaration to her last night.. Haha. After this 1 month of work, i think my friendship with my longest time pal Yuanbing, has indeed Blossomed.

Look, everyday she'll be the one i first meet and the last person i see before i go back home to sleep. It's like, Open and Shut my eyes, Bam, it's Yb again !

Take the bus, take together. Sit in the train, sit together. Squeeze through the Mrt crowds, squeeze with her. Talk cock, talk cock with her. Siao, siao together. Walk home, walk together. Shop, shop together. Emo, emo together. Gossip, gossip together. Complain about work, complain together. Eat lunch, dinner, Supper, eat together. Keep quiet and shut up, also shut up with her.

It's scary but

Wah, how Romantic.

Haha. But yes, she is really my Long Time Friend.

Okay, i shall go change and meet Yuanbing at Chinatown now.

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Wednesday, December 06, 2006

If That's The Way It Is

You'll find it hiding in shadows. You'll find it hiding in cupboards. It will walk you home safe every night. It will help you remember. If that's way it is, then that's the way it is. I still feel you and the taste of cigarettes. What could I ever run to. Just tell me it's tearing you apart, just tell me you cannot sleep. And you didn't even notice, when the sky turned blue. And you couldn't tell the difference. Between me and you. And I nearly didn't notice the gentlest feeling.
You are the bluest light - "Blue Light", Bloc Party

Lovely. Emo

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Saturday, December 02, 2006

Just Keep Me Sane, Yes?

Hello Everyone.

I'm back like ages ago from my holiday trip, just that i couldn't bring myself to come here to blabber about my trip. All in all, this family trip to Beijing and HongKong was eventful (and Bloody Cold) and i really want to go back to HK again. This time, of course, with My Friends.

It was a good Get Away from Singapore, though i missed out quite a bit of activities i didn't exactly want to miss. Like the Ccab Camp and the Throwers Gathering. Missing the camp was like missing out a whole lot of experience (How Cliched i Have Become. But I Meant It, Okay.) and missing the Throwers Gathering at Laguna was like missing the One In A Million of chances of catching up with my Old Pals, both whom i have not seen for like 10 years.

Abbs and Tasha, let's meet up Soon. And ABBS, i know you'll see This ! Haha. I really miss you both.

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I don't know what i have been doing these few days. Everyday seems to be like a rush, for something i don't know. Sometimes i am not even sure, for whatever reasons am i working hard for. I guess it's the holidays, the break from School, that is making me think more. And the more thoughts i've given it into, the more afraid i have become, of the future, of next year and of myself. I think i have somehow lost track of my own capacity for things.

I find myself getting more and more afraid with the start of each day. And the reasons? I don't even know.

It's December, time to be reflective kids. Hah

In the next coming weeks, it's going to be kinda mad. Although for one thing i am totally thankful for, 7th Dec is finally here.

It is the day, when i finally can Quit my vacation job. Thank God. I've been waiting for this day since the day i started work a month ago. I'm totally tired of it.

But, with the end of Work, means the start of School work. Tuitions will start soon, and holiday homework, something which I have to start on it soon. It is totally like a mountain high pile of Shits.

And i am not even mentioning about the school Camps (Notice the 'S') and trainings.

And it's already the second day into December. Shudders

It was Thank God It's Friends Day yesterday. Met up with the Girls, Pam Estee Xiu and Yuanbing at our favourite heartland Toapayoh for dinner, and just sitting there listening to them updating each other about their hilarious Lives made everything seemed better.

And so this was why Yb and I decided to Pon Work last night. It was not planned, but it was on the spot, Wham, Bam - We were not going to miss anything for this TGIF.

This is how important TGIFs are. They make your week a bit more bearable, and make the world less evil. They make you pause and stop, and take stock of what the hell you've been missing for the past few days. Whether is it the Smiles, the Joy, the Comfort or the Peace that you've been denied of for the whole week, you can always find them again in TGIFs.

But sad to say, when the Friday is over, it's always back to square one. It's back to reality, it's back to Earth.

That is why i always look forward to Fridays.

It keep me sane.

I just want the weeks to pass by so fast, fast enough for the 19th to come, fast enough for the bad to go away, fast enough for the good to come, and fast enough for me to go through this myself. But i also want the weeks to pass by a bit slower. Slow enough for me to enjoy the Hols (what Hols actually), slow enough for me to catch some breath, slow enough to tune myself right, and slow enough for me to Emo (Read: Here blogging). There's no such thing as time for Emo when 2007 hits us. Hah

Am I contradicting.

I need sleep, real Sleep.

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